Why do I hurt everyone? It's not like I get any satisfaction from that, it doesn't make me feel any better. I cannot stop myself. Before I get closer with anyone I always warn them that I'll fuck up their mind, make them depressed and leave. But they never listen. Even when I see what I've done, when I see them suffer still they don't agree that it's my fault. How foolish of them. They think that this is ok. I should stay away from people. I don't want to hurt them. And at the same time I cannot leave them. I'm doing everything so they would understand that I'm not good, that they have to run away from me as fast as they can and at the same time I'm doing everything to make them feel that they cannot be without me. I wish they wouldn't listen. Just run. Be happy. I'm sucking the life out of them but it doesn't do any good for me.